dezember '08

I was a silly little girl sitting all alone with nothing

but darkness staring back at me. Most little girls were

afraid of the dark; afraid of what lurked behind closet doors

and underneath twin beds; afraid of some indescribable creatures

reaching to snatch them in their sleep. Not I though,

no I embraced the dark; I found it to be a hiding place where I could

compose my thoughts and orchestrate my understanding

of the world around me. I was a silly little girl sitting all

alone with nothing but darkness staring back at me.

Life was like a symphony back then, hell it still is. Many sights

and sounds blending together to make some kind of sense

but at the same time making no sense at all. But I played my part

in that music, even if no one could hear me, I had my own little notes

blending in. The dark taught me how to comprehend what my

eyes were no longer seeing, processing my yesterdays

into tomorrow's distinction. I was a silly little girl sitting all

alone with nothing but darkness staring back at me. I learned how

to listen with my heart and hear with my mind.

My mother said I was strange sitting all alone in the dark, but

I didn't care, I told her I wasn't strange and that she should

embrace the darkness too. I was a silly little girl sitting alone

with nothing but darkness staring back at me. I didn't think I

was strange at all, maybe a little different. Or maybe just a bit odd

but I used darkness as a moment of reflection because I understood

the light of day was going to bring new meanings and new melodies

from the orchestra of life. I recognized that it wasn't darkness

staring back at me but a new day. Maybe I wasn't silly at all.